Currently Reading: Bleeding Chaos by Nikki Ash

Excerpt from Bleeding Chaos:

Gage
“F*ck, Tori, I can’t believe it’s been six damn years since the last time I saw your face, heard your voice, felt you in my arms.” I glide my hand across the marble and release a harsh sigh. “You would’ve been twenty-four years old last week.” I place a dozen flowers into the holder. “Sorry, I couldn’t be here on your birthday. We were still on tour, and I couldn’t figure out a way to get here and back without missing a show.”
I drop onto my ass and close my eyes, wishing for the pain in my heart to go away. After all these years, you’d think the heart would be able to heal. But I swear, as I sit here and think about the only girl I’ve ever loved, my heart bleeds as badly as it did the day I lost her.
I’ve been busy for the past six years. After losing Tori, Easton put us on a plane to LA, where the guys and I signed a contract with Blackwood Records. A few months later, we released our first album and it blew the fuck up. We’ve been on several world tours, sold millions of songs and albums, and broken numerous records, but nothing relieves the constant pain deep in my soul over losing yet another woman I would’ve given my life to save.
“Sometimes, I wonder—” I start to speak, but my words are cut off by the sound of someone crying. Since I’m sitting in a cemetery, it’s not uncommon to hear someone crying, but this cry… it’s gut-wrenching like someone is literally pulling the soul out of one’s body.
When I look around, I see a woman a few gravesites down lying across the ground with her arms draped over a headstone. Her body is visibly shaking, and her cries are heartbreaking.
I’m usually one to mind my own business, but something draws me to her. Maybe it’s recognizing a kindred spirit, feeling the pain she feels.
When I walk over to her, I find her eyes are closed, and she’s actually sleeping. She’s crying, sobbing in her f*cking sleep. I consider leaving her alone, but the sky is gray, and based on the dark clouds, it’s due to rain soon.
Leaning down, I gently press my palm to her shoulder to nudge her awake. It only takes a few times before she jolts awake and faces me. Her dark red hair is up in a messy bun, and when her big green eyes meet mine, bloodshot and glassy and sad, so f*cking sad, I’m momentarily taken aback.

Gage
I lost my first love. This time, I’m going to win the second girl who owns my heart—no matter the stakes.

Being the drummer for Raging Chaos is the only thing that’s kept me going for the past six years. Even the music isn’t enough to drown out the guilt that’s been suffocating me since what happened to Tori.

When Sadie storms into my life, ripping through my trepidations, sorrows, and bitterness, I can’t help but wonder if she could be my second chance.

I could love her, but in order to do that, I have to stop hating myself first.

Easier said than done. Before I have the chance to mend this broken heart, I push Sadie away and hit rock bottom.

The next time I see her, she has a baby. And if that’s not hurtful enough, it’s not just any baby.

It’s my baby.

Sadie
Bleeding hearts can still beat. I’m living proof of that.

At first, Gage was just someone to take away the pain—until I realized he was battling demons of his own.

I never meant to get too close to the devil with the drumsticks, but once I did, he shoved me out of his life with a force.

My heart might be cracked, but his is completely broken. And trying to save him would destroy us both.

So, I do the right thing and I walk away—not only to protect me but also our unborn baby.

I had no idea who Gage was to the world when I slipped into his bed. Now that I’m out of it, it’s clear he’ll have to clean up his act before he’s father material.

But then we meet again, and I’m reminded of the man he could be.

The man he was born to be, before tragedy struck and the chaos left his heart barely beating.

AUTHOR’S NOTE: Like real life, the characters are far from perfect, make morally gray decisions, and deal with subjects that may be sensitive for some readers. If you are looking for a safe romance, this series is not for you. Trigger warnings (which contain spoilers) can be found on my website: https://authornikkiash.com/loveandlyricsseries/

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Nikki Ash resides in South Florida where she is an English teacher and mom by day and a writer by night. When she’s not writing, you can find her with a book in her hand. From the Boxcar Children to Wuthering Heights to the latest Single Parent Romance, she has lived and breathed every type of book.

While reading and writing are her passions, her two children are her entire world. You can probably find them at a Disney park before you would find them at home on the weekends!

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